It's been so long that this blog has been last updated. This blog has been collecting dust and cobwebs. Yucks.

Anyway, life has been pretty good for me. Did you guys know that three of the Berok Gays members are working under the same company? Cool right?

Girls, if you are reading this, it's time to revamp this blog. Update it. Make it look more chic. Hahaha. Ok, I'm crapping. That's it from me. Toodles.

Life and its strangest moments

Yay, production is over. Phew!! what a relief. Ten days of madness, traumatic, nail-bitting, nerve-racking, mind-boggling and whatever not of hell is over. Thank god for that. Hopefully there will be no big problems during post- production. I am not sure how to describe the mixed feelings I'm having. Part of me is happy that production is over but another part of me is sad because we kinda meet fun people on set like our juniors, damn funny people. While another part of me feels that it is very sian because no matter how hard you tried to contribute or please people, some people would just be ungrateful and not appreciative and they would always without fail give you this attitude. I think i have had enough of all this nonsense.
Oh well, so after like 3 days of rest and we had telecine on saturday till 4am in the morning, I feel exhausted but I am not alone. We have even exhausted our funds and from 4 figure sum to like 1 figure (3 figure to be exact but with a dot in the middle). And we still havent pay the cast and dunno wat else ar...sian.
School is starting like in 2 weeks time and I still havent fully recuperate mentally and physically. I still have a lot on my agenda from meeting the S to extracting my dear wisdom tooth, the third one mind you. And to further add up to the agenda, hari raya is coming soon. And my thigh is now blue-black thanks to the tv landing on it.
But no worries, I have my tv shows to keep me alive and upbeat. To destress myself, i drowned myself watching soap operas/dramas such as Dawson Creek (currently at the 3rd season finishing soon), Gilmore Girls (currently at the 6th season), The OC(3rd season also). I also have tons of tv shows to watch too, wow all these stuff can really keep me occupied the whole 2 weeks. C'est la vie. Sometimes i juz wonder whether is it too little time i have or too many things i have to do. It slowly daunt on me that maybe i have become this obsessed workaholic freak who doesn't really have a life besides school and excessive tv shows. I am a big tv junkie and having friends who are also tv junkies doesn't really help. I should say it is more on the comfort zone that the reel life has to offer. And even though the real life is surreal and stuff referring to my life for that matter, i think its mentally and physically challenging and exhausting. Trust me, been there and done that.
Lastly, where is that so-called friend whom is always not there when i needed him the most and in which im always there for him. Life and its strangest moments.
One thing i learn after the production is that you can never please everyone and you will find that there are many types of people out there which makes u stop and ponder that can life ever be more interesting/cruel than this.
listening to force vomit- last nite you say goodbye

Updates

Its been such a long time since i last blogged. Oh well time doesn't permit me to do so. I have been busy these last few days with shoots and its all night shoots, really killer shoots only to come back in the wee hours. It is so tiring and it is really draining all my energy. I haven't been sleeping well and there are so many problems like location is a mess, the makeup artist left on the first day, stressing us out. So many things have happened both bad and good but we take it in our stride. As one of them would say look on the bright side, there may be blessings in disguise. Even though it is a stressful period, i feel that the group grew closer and the people are fun to work with. We had a lot of fun and i think we are going to have more fun from today onwards coz we are going to a chalet to build our set and shoot there. We are building a bar at the chalet and its going to look beautiful. I have full confidence in the art department as we already have a beautiful set of the office and the hotel room with nice wallpapers. I believe the bar is going to look beautiful too. Yippee i cant wait and our application for grant has been approved...yay...i tink its not so bad afterall hopefully. We still have three more shooting days hoping to end well if not very sian man. Ok lah enuf of the rambling...

SLUMBER PARTY 2005

Slumber party which commenced last night was a success. Hurrah! Hurrah! May the next party or any gatherings be as mad as that. Viva la Beroks!

Betul.. itu sungguh betul...

TOTALLY AGREE WITH YOU,KIN.... I hate men who abused women too. I FIND THEM COWARDLY & THE LOWEST FORM OF SCUM!

Some updates

Yup I know its been ages since I last bolgged. It has been a tough and busy period all this while. I have been busy since god knows when and I have finish a small hurdle or a small battle I should say. Imagine doing paperwork, staring in front of your laptop for like ten hours straight with only an hour of nap. Gosh thats tiring but it was fun though coz all six of us are doing all the work at the same time in one of our group members house and just doing work. Actually it was only 5 of us but one joined at around 7 or 8am to go to school together in a maxi cab. Yes the 6 seater maxi cab. The crazy things we do and we even ate ice-cream while doing our work, passing the tub of ice-cream and sometimes skipping the other person and just to irritate him especially the director since he was the only guy around.

Last Monday, the six of us, 2 guys and 4 girls went to watch The Maid at the Alliance Francaise. The Maid, directed by Kelvin Tong, was funny and scary but not that scary. I think I like Pontianak directed by one of my seniors for his specialist project. I shall not be a spoiler . Just go and watch it and there is a student concession price $5. One thing that I will say is that Haizad, one of the Singapore Idol contestant is a cast in The Maid. After that, we went for location scouting for roads and alley. We went to Arab Street and there a belly-dancing performance and the crowd just went ga-ga.

There was a National Day celebration near my estate and of course I have to accompany my mum, who obviously loves to go to this kinda thing. And there was a collaboration of celebration, my secondary school and the community centre. How wonderful but luckily I left that school so long ago. How paiseh it would be with so many people there watching. When I saw the parade, it so reminded me of my time when I was in secondary school, the flag-bearer and the parade. I miss marching, I miss my secondary school life, my teachers, my friends and all the fun times we had there. Those were the days. Looking back, I feel that secondary school is where you just have fun without really to worry so much about where are you going after you finish studying, what are you going to do with the rest of your life and how are you planning to spend the rest of your life. How I wish I could relive those days and really make full use of my life then, studied harder and make better decisions but then again as the saying goes "Don't cry over split milk".

Just now as my dad was coming home, he saw a couple fighting and the guy/husband/boyfriend like kick the girl/wife/girlfriend. I think my dad kinda want to offer his help but then he thought to himself better not coz firstly its none of his business and he should not be interfering, secondly the guy wateva had tatoo and peircing and stuff so my dad thought that it is just not worth his time, kindness and effort in helping coz he knows that he would be shouted back, scolded and not really worthly of his help. Not that I am trying to discriminate or stereotype this kind of people but I think they are just not worth it. Period. And did I mention that the girl etc was with some kids or kid or sometink like that, I didn't really hear what my dad was saying as i was half-asleep. I think he might be saying to himself, "Syukur Alhamdullilah, that is not one of my daughters or relatives. If that happens to them, I'm sure going to drag the guy to court"...haha. And thank god that person is not me.
Don't worry dad, I think I am smarter than to choose a wife-beater or anything close to that but than again its hard to say also, so just keep a lookout for me aight dad. I know you know what best for me and so guide me along. I will obey you dad coz the last thing I would want is to end up with the wrong person as my husband. That is my greatest fear in life and not realising that I would destroy my own future just like that.
I can't imagine what kind of guy would beat/kick/resort to violence to a woman, not any woman but your woman!!! Sorry to say but i despise wife-beater, COME ON AR GET A GRIP!!! YOUR WIFE IS NOT THERE FOR YOU BEAT HER UP!!! How would you feel if your own sister got beaten up by her husband? It is just so sad to see this kind of thing happening in your own society and knowing that you can't help them is so depressing. I always believe that you choose your own fate and that it is in your hands. So don't go around blaming others for your own mistakes but you only have yourself to blame. I remembered my dad was saying sometink like, "Ini mesti degil ar tu, mak bapak cakap tak nak dengar, sekarang kan sendiri dah susah baru nak cari mak bapak. Tahu nak enjoy aje dah tercepit macam gini baru tahu, bukan tak nasihat, sampai berbuih pun msih tak nak dengar. Nanti siape disalahkan? Mak bapak jugak. Inilah budak sekarang." He said while watching the helpless girl trying to hail for a cab maybe back to her parents place. My condolences to you man and all other girls out there. Nauzubillah binzalik, astrafirullah halazim, janganlah terjadi kepadaku, amin.
Ok, that's it folk for today. Au revoir.

listening to you're beautiful by james blunt

HOLLER........ HOLLER...

DI MANA DIA...
KAWAN-KAWAN BAIK SAYA..
La La La La Laa.....

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